Overwhelmed and Forgetful
“I used to have a handle on life but it broke.”
At 6:30 p.m. last Thursday, I looked across the dinner table at my 10-year-old, searching her sweet face as I often do and made my way to her braces realizing she had a dentist appointment AT 2:40 p.m. THAT DAY! I just shook my head and dropped it down because this has been the story of my life for quite some time now.
This is not only the story of my life but the story of most women in my life. Try as we may to hide it, we cannot do it all! I hear it from moms all of the time — I forgot to turn to in my child’s science project. My child has been sick, and I totally missed the signs. I can’t be there to help at my child’s school. These statements are laced with guilt and shame, but they are mostly hidden until we feel safe enough to share.
In light of this, I’ve been asked two questions lately that I’d like to share:
Weekly, I meet with Katie. She is a newlywed. She has asked the question How do you do it all? And, because I am pouring buckets of wisdom into Katie, my response to her is (drumroll) I don’t. I know. Very anti-climatic.
My laundry piles up so high that my closet stinks. We eat frozen pizza at least once a week. I forget dentist appointments unless my kids remind me. My preschooler only takes show-n-tell if he remembers. I can’t recall everyday, common words at least once a day. All of my children have already had cavities. I forget to take medicine, drink water, turn off the oven and pray.
The truth is, I never really had a handle on life. It was only a figment of my imagination.
The other question has been asked by a few: I am so overwhelmed; what is God trying to teach me? Again, I have a mind-blowing answer, I don’t know. Tweetable, right?
I do know that we must, in every circumstance, big or small, realize our deep need for our Savior. Whatever drives us to God is not wasted. And, maybe it’s just me, but believing that God will not give us more than we can handle seems to be contrary to what we’re called to. Why wouldn’t he give us more than we can handle when he is the source everything? Everything. We must have him to handle anything. Anything. The circumstance you’re in may be more than you can handle, but it will not exceed His grace.
So, be overwhelmed. Be forgetful. Let it drive you down.
Then, be overwhelmed by the kindness of the Savior who is always is control, never-forgetting and abounding in grace.