Resting in the Middle
Clarity is setting in on the fact that life does not intend to slow down.
On Monday, many of us established together that we are overwhelmed and forgetful.
Although I have felt overwhelmed in different ways through different life-stages, I have often looked to the day I can put my feet up, read a book while looking out at the waves from my resort and rest. Then, my kids left the baby stage, and something strange started happening in my life — reality. What’s funny is that I’m not very idealistic, but I thought life would be easy when I didn’t have babies anymore. It is true that I sleep more, and my children are fairly self-sufficient, but now, they have homework and activities and relationships. Life is just a different kind of difficult.
I’ve even jumped ahead since then to times alone with my husband when our children leave home, but I’ve quickly been reminded by older-adult friends that life still comes fast and busy. Responsibility is always present even when kids go to college, get married, have kids and then our own parents will need to be cared-for.
Once again, whatever drives us to our Savior is not wasted.
But, how do we learn how to rest in the middle?
How can we find solitude in the middle of life’s overwhelming, busy day-to-day circumstances?
I try a little of everything. Sometimes I stop dead in my tracks, shed a few tears, then keep moving because I don’t have time. Others, I sit and cry for five or ten. Sometimes I read a verse or two in my Bible. At times, I sit and read for hours. Sometimes I say “yes.” Mostly, I say “no.” Sometimes I pray. Other times I listen. Sometimes I doze for a minute. But, a few times a month, I take a nap.
Ann Voskamp says, “Praying with eyes wide open is the only way to pray without ceasing.”
I have a friend who runs herself ragged, working for the lost to be saved. Whenever I question her exhaustion, she says, “I’ll sleep when I’m dead.”
It is true. We can find ways to “rest in the middle,” but our true rest will come in eternity.
How do you find rest in the middle? Please share. We can all use a little help.