National Day of Busy, I Mean Prayer, 2012
Whose idea was it to have the National Day of Prayer on May 3rd? was my first thought when I read the headline this morning. It certainly wasn’t a mother who had a doctor’s appointment, two field days, a field trip, a pre-marital counseling appointment, and a women’s ministry gathering among others events this week. How can I ever focus on such an important day in our country when I’m racing with other moms around me?
This morning, I had a small break to hide in the dark for such an important day, but it was more of a reflection. My intent was to pray, but there were no words. I was reflecting how much my prayer life has changed over the last year. For most of my life, I thought praying was just something I was bad at, like running. I came to realize my failure was not in my praying but in my not praying. So, I started doing it. I started doing it more, and I kept on. What I realized this morning is that I didn’t care how much time I had, I couldn’t not pray. I had to stop and sit down. Many times, I don’t pray for my circumstances. I just pray for my heart. It needs a lot of work. Since God is faithful to change my heart, circumstances begin to fade in comparison. Andrew Murray said, “Faith in a prayer-hearing God will make a prayer-loving Christian.” My belief in God has grown deeper as my time in prayer has increased.
I have so much to do that I spend several hours in prayer before I am able to do it.—John Wesley